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Monday, July 18th, 2005
10:59 pm	Hi Sweetie, Everything is perfect right now. I wouldn't have it any other way. Thank you for everthing... but most of all thank you for loving me as much as you do. I love you will all of my heart. 5 months on the 20th+ for always. I love you so incredibly much. Don't forget that. xoxox elaine (Comment on this)
Friday, June 24th, 2005
12:48 am	Oh Gavin Degraw I felt I had to put these lyrics in here, because A lot of it reminds me of how I feel towards you. annnd I love you. and yeah. I'm glad we are as strong as we are. Nothing in the world will keep me from you. I hope you know that. I loveeee youuu<3 "Follow Through" Oh, this is the start of something good Don't you agree? I haven't felt like this in so many moons You know what I mean? And we can build through this destruction As we are standing on our feet So, since you want to be with me You'll have to follow through With every word you say And I, all I really want is you You to stick around I'll see you everyday But you have to follow through You have to follow through These reeling emotions they just keep me alive They keep me in tune Oh, look what I'm holding here in my fire This is for you Am I too obvious to preach it? You're so hypnotic on my heart So, since you want to be with me You'll have to follow through With every word you say And I, all I really want is you You to stick around I'll see you everyday But you have to follow through You have to follow through The words you say to me are unlike anything That's ever been said And what you do to me is unlike anything That's ever been Am I too obvious to preach it? You're so hypnotic on my heart So, since you want to be with me You'll have to follow through With every word you say And I, all I really want is you (For) you to stick around I'll see you everyday But you'll have to follow through With every word you say An I, all I really want is you (For) you to stick around I'll see everyday But you have to follow through You have to follow through You're gonna have to follow Oh, this is the start of something good Don't you agree? Current Mood: awake Current Music: gavin- follow through (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 11th, 2005
11:19 am	Yesterday was a good day! well I don't need to go into detail butttt yessmm. I love you babe. I love our sleepovers. I love everything. Its always just ah, so amazing. I really can't put into words how you make me feel, or the feeling I get closing my eyes knowing your laying next to me, being in your arms and feeling safer than I've ever felt. The feeling I get when I wake up and look next to me and see you soundly asleep looking like an angel. Everything feels just as it should. I love you. <3 ahhh <333 I'll update again soon. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 6th, 2005
1:41 am	You know I love you. its wicked late and we just got off the phone and had a long nice talk. I'm happy about our new rule. I hope it works. I hate when you think I'm not comfortable to tell you stuff. Because I opened up to you so much, but you don't even realize it. Anways, thank you for being my boyfriend, and my bestfriend. You know how rough things are right now with like everything, and you're basically the only one who knows. I'm pretty sure I told Joe though, I think I told him about my dad but yeah. And I talked to Kay today, adn started to tell her about that, but she had to go and it sucked. So anyways,back to the point. Thank you for being here for me right now. I'm sorry for being a grumpygus. I love you, and thank you. (mwahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh) I love you I love You I love You I LOVE YOU!!!! okay. never ever ever ever ever doubt that. (Comment on this)
Friday, June 3rd, 2005
11:16 pm	Oh boy..... Hi sweetie. I love washing your hair for you. I loved today. I love that I trust you. I love that I wrote a poem about you today, and it ruled. I love that you always make me feel amazing. I loved every word you said outside to me. No I take that back, I deffinately didn't love when, you said you didn't think you were good enough. I will fight you. I love tickling you because you're adorable. I loved decorating your hotdog today! I love taking funny pictures with you. I love bathroom trips in purebred. ;). I love making faces in the mirror together. I love our long hugs. I love when you throw my arms around you. I love it when you carry me...because I can't walk. ;). I love when you write messages on my banner on my phone. I love seeing you after classes. I love when you call me before bed. I love how you somehow think you love me more. I love watching you play with little Ian. I love that I'm wearing your shirt, and it smells like you, and I miss you, even though I was with you like 3 hours ago, if that. I love going to your mums house with you. I love spending time with you. I love when we hold hands and squeeze eachothers hands. I love that I can tell you anything now, and I'm not afraid. I love that you are you. I love how you make me feel. I love playing with your hair when we're laying together. I love snuggling with you. I love our kissies. I love being "lovey dovey" I love when you wrap your arms around me. I could continue this list until my dying day, but I want to say. Most importantly, and more than anything in the world... I love you. You know I mean it too. I love you Shawn Christopher Bellisle. You amaze me everyday. I love you forever. xoxox (Comment on this)
Monday, May 30th, 2005
5:51 pm	PS. Current Mood: grateful Current Music: you were meant for me- jewel (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 29th, 2005
7:41 am	Shawn, I couldn't even sleep last night, and I still can't stop crying. I'm so sorry about that. Im going to apoligize to you until im dead. I never in a million years thought that would happen. Thank you for understanding and forgiving me especially. My mum is still totally rip shit, and my brother hasnt called my house at all, because he knows he's going to hear it. I can assure you, they've NEVER done anything like that, and I didn't expect that at all, and I'm reallly hurt, and humiliated that they did that. I'm so sorry. Seriously though, thank you for not, just you know what I mean. You know how scared I was, and I know how scary that was. I'm disgusted with them for doing that. I love you very much, and I'm incredibly sorry. Thank you for being stronger than I was last night, just thank you for everything. I really don't know how I got so lucky to have you in my life. I love you. I love you. I love you. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 26th, 2005
10:17 pm	Sorry i was a poop at your work today. but yeah, hanging out at Barnes and Nobles after was fun. I really wish we spent more quality time together, because it makes me very happy when we do. I love you. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
6:58 pm	we need to hangout more often. Today was...well... I think you know what I'm going to say... Yeah. I love you, and you're the best. (Comment on this)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
5:40 pm	I just wanted to take this time out, to tell you I love you. Very Much. My feelings for you will never change, only grow stronger. I love you very much sweetheart. I'm so very proud of you. You amaze me everyday. xoxox (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 8th, 2005
8:51 pm	I'm going to do a real update for you soon sweetie. But look what this kid from my algebra class made for me?! !!! So sweet. Its funny, so many people are envious of our relationship. Anyways I love you very much. Last night was amazing. Seeing you today was amazing. Everything is amazing. I love you. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 26th, 2005
11:19 pm	Yeah. I miss you so much. I've been staring at your picture all day while I've been laying in bed. Kayleigh thinks I'm pathetic. I just miss you a lot. ugh, anyways. Today sucked..again. Well, hanging out with a few pals got my mind off of missing you. But I'm at home again, and waiting for your call. I pray to god you don't forget to call me again. Waiting up for calls that don't come are the worst. Yep. I miss you, and I love you. Remember that.
9:26 am	well.. I hate missing you..... yep... ugh.
Monday, April 25th, 2005
2:30 pm	I'll sing to you all I want, hush. And you're going to love it.... ps. COUNTRY!!! "Mud On The Tires" I've got some big news The bank finally came through And I'm holdin' the keys to a brand new Chevrolet Have you been outside it sure is a nice night How about a little test drive Down by the lake There's a place I know about where the dirt road runs out And we can try out the four-wheel drive Come on now what do you say Girl, I can hardly wait to get a little mud on the tires [Chorus] 'Cause it's a good night To be out there soakin' up the moonlight Stake out a little piece of shoreline I've got the perfect place in mind It's in the middle of nowhere only one way to get there You got to get a little mud on the tires Moonlight on a duck blind Catfish on a trot line Sun sets about nine this time of year We can throw a blanket down Crickets singin' in the background And more stars than you can count on a night this clear I tell you what we need to do is grab a sleepin' bag or two And build us a little campfire And then with a little luck we might just get stuck Let's get a little mud on the tires [Repeat Chorus] And then with a little luck we might just get stuck Let's get a little mud on the tires - Brad Paisley... DEAL WITH IT. I LOVE YOU.
12:59 pm	Today I stood on my porch and the wind was blowing hard and it was rather chilly, but I thought of you and got warm. I also got that feeling in my chest. I wonder if you ever get that feeling. I love it, and I love you.
Sunday, April 24th, 2005
10:20 pm	<3
Friday, April 22nd, 2005
3:46 pm	OIOI. Im going to change...... I really do love you. The doors at school are cursed. Maybe I am? "Did you hear that Elaine? Thats the kind of man you want to marry" " what?" " Their 2 favorite things are Disney World, and Christmas. One day she asked him if he was happy, and he looked her in the eye and said... " You're my disney world, and Christmas everyday"..." " Awww :)." Then my heart melted. I'm done update livejournal, I suckkk. I hate waiting by the phone. Worst Ever. What is wrongg with me? I learned a small, valuable lesson, and for future reference, I will use it. because 1.) I hate the shit my friends tell me. Its annoying. and 2.) I love you.
3:45 pm	Some day... I'm the biggest sucker.
Thursday, April 21st, 2005
4:02 pm	2 Month book. Everyone loved my book. The girl in my civics class saw me at the end of the day and flipped out because I havent seen you yet, and I told her you didn't come to school and she flipped out and said she was depressed for me because its the cutest ever. Some girl randomly came up to me and asked to look at it, and then she said she was stealing my idea and that my boyfriend is a lucky boy. She also told me you were wicked hott, and I don't know her ,but she was pretty, so for some reason I was like...kinda jealous? Even though i Shouldnt be... envermind. Everyone in my per. A class wanted to see it. Everyone who has seen it thinks im the best girlfriend ever.... But the only person I wanted to shwo it to today was you, and Im dying for your reaction...ughh.
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
8:26 pm	Today was weird, I was sitting on my bed thinking, 'why hasn't he called me at all today?' and I started to get sad thinking about it, then literally as I started getting sad, my cell phone rang, and I was expecting it to be DannyG, or TommyD, or like Jess... but it was you, and it made me feel amazing. Today I got THE dress. Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I cannnnnnoooootttttt WAITTTT for you to seee itttttttt. My mother neeeds the computer now, and I was in the mood to write, damn... p.s againandagain, I love youuuu.